An Image Of Love - Chapter Eighteen

Later that day, you went up to the room to get ready to go out on a date with Ville, he hasn't told you about were he was taken you but you overheard Missy and Bam talking in the kitchen about him taking you out on a luxurious restaurant. Smiling, although it ruined the surprise, you now knew how you had to get dress for the ocassion.

Seeing Ville walking into room while you were looking through your bag for a dress, you smiled as he walked to you and wrapped his arms around you, "What are you doing?"

"Looking for something to put on" You said as you kissed his lips and got back to do your bussiness. Ville smiled and kissed your neck, something he was obsessed with.

"We have a date" He said as he continued kissing you and nodding your head since there was no way you were one to forget, you grabbed one beautiful black dress that you hadn't used in a long time and didn't have a doubt that you brought it with you. "I didn't know I brought this with me" You said more to yourself than to Ville and as he wanted to see it you put it down and into the bag,

"You can't see it" You said with a smile and he pouted,

"Why not?" He asked as you zipped your bag, "Because it's a surprise or are you going to tell me what you will wear tonight?"

"Well yeah black dress pant, my red shirt and my black jacket. Now you can tell me"

"Not fair, I'm a girl and I'm suppose to surprise you, so now go go go" You said pushing him out of the room as he wanted to stay and tried to kiss you. "Only one" He said and you sighed smiling and pecked his lips softly but he wasn't getting only that as he cupped his hands on your face bringing you closer.

"Ville" You said agaisnt his lips and he pulled away with a grin. Shaking your head with a smile ,you closed the door and proceed to get ready. This was the dress by the way: 

And when you put it on you were glad that it still look pretty on you because you had bought it a long time ago on your first date with your ex husband. It brought to you a lot of memories and you still wondered why it was there...it was all a coincidence or you just put it by mistake?...Not thinking much on it, you put on smocky make-up and red lip gloss to outshine your lips. Dedicing that you were going to let your hair hung down, you grabbed your bag and headed downstairs where Ville was already dress.

"How did you get dress?" You asked confused as he puffed the smoke from his cigarette.

"Magic..." He said and smiled walking to you. "You look beautiful by the way" He said kissing your red lips and when he pulled away you laughed. Raising an eyebrow, he asked "What?"

"Red looks so good on you" You replied as with your finger tip you removed the red lipgloss from his wet lips. Grinning, he took your hand and walked oustide where a cab was waiting. The night went by pretty good, the two of you shared a great dinner and you enjoyed yourself to the fullest. Vill decided it was too early to go home, so the two of you started walking around. There wasn't much to see as it was all woods around but it was quiet and you loved to look up into the clearest night.

Ville watched you as you looked up into the sky and stars, he was holding you by your waist and he just couldn't stop admiring you, how your eyes shined at the moon light and the peaceful look that you had, he had never seen before. "Char" He said and imediatly felt bad about breaking the peace you had.

"Yes?" You said as you look deep into his green eyes. A beautiful smile came on his lips as the most gorgeus words you had ever heard slipped out of his mouth "I love you". Your mouth hung opened as you stare at him, his smile not letting go of his face. He said it back was all you could thought about.

Putting your right hand on his cheek, you smiled and pecked his lips softly, just a whisper that had your world spinning around. Ville was feeling love and loved, for the first time in his life he knew that he loved, this was not compare about before, it was powerful and it made him felt alive.

"I swear I won't let you go, never" He said as he held you closed as he never wanted to let you go and he wouldn't even dare on loosing you. He had claimed you as his and that was forever.

Unfortunately the weekend that you were there had to go quickly because you were enjoying it to the fullest, you and Ville had to part ways once again and go to your respective houses, he back to Finland, you back to LA. You didn't want to let him go but you knew he had to, he had things to do now because he had to start to record the new album and you had to go back and continue with the book.

"I'm going to miss you, promise me that you will call" He said as he kissed you hard on the lips. You were on the airport waiting for your plane to be called and kissing him back you replied "I promise, take care okay?" You said as you cupped your hands on his face to look deep into his eyes.

"I will, I love you" He said and kissed you once again, that was until your heard your plane called "I will call you to arrange to go to Finland in two weeks okay? I love you" Kissing him one last time, you let go of him and didn't dare to turn around, you didn't want him to see the tears in your eyes.

Arriving on LA chaos once again, working hard on the book and getting on meetings with the people that were doing it. You had to explain each photo to them and it was hard as hell. All you wanted to do really is go on vacation once again, but you knew you had to do this and it was killing you. You barely eat or sleep, it was getting harder to do so since all you thought about was your work.

Ville had told you to eat and stay healthy since he wanted you to be okay but you couldn't do it. You were getting thinner and the bags under your eyes were getting heavy but you were hiding them with make-up. In a few days you had to be on Finland and you really didn't think about it since all you are trying to do is get everything ready so you could leave for a few days.

Ville on the other hand was on his apartment shirtless and with the jean's botton opened, his guitar on hand and a paper with lyrics on the floor. He was composing new music and he hoped it wasn't so corny since all he could thought about was you and how much he was falling in love with you.

His cellphone started ringing violently making him go out of his musical trance. Grabbing it from the couch, he looked at the ID and smiled, "My darling" He answered which made you smiled also

"Hey baby, how are you going?" You asked as you put the laptop on the coffee table.

"I've been good, just busy and all but missing you nontheless" He replied as he set his guitar next to him and layed back on the couch.

"I've missed you too and It has been a long two weeks, I can't wait to be there" You said which made him grin,

"I can't wait either, I need to hold you in my arms. By the way have you noticed that your black dress from the night we went out on West Chester is missing?" He asked still grinning as he has it on his bed to hold it at night and smell your scent.

"Now that you comment on it, I haven't seen it since that night...Have I forgetted it at Bam's?" You asked as you couldn't imagine that he had stolen it just to have you in some symbolical way.

"No, well let's say that you forget it here at Finland, more exactly at my bed" He replied with a laugh that made you laughed too, it was so contagious.

"You are silly, by the way I stole your 'Rolling Stones's tshirt and I wear it to sleep"

"Oh yeah I did notice it was missing but I though it was around here at home, mean girl"

"No, I just wanted to have you in some way" You said which made Ville smiled, "I can't wait to have you here and hold you and never let go of you"

"Well good news for you I'm arriving into Finland next week, Monday morning" You told which made Ville's lips turned into the biggest smile he had ever had.

"Really? Good I'll pick you up okay?"

"You'd better because I don't want to get lost" Laughing Ville replied, "You'll get lost but in my bed for days"

Shaking your head with a smile, "I'm so waiting for that" And the chat continued with catching up about the week and everything else.

Chad had called you later that day and told you that since he was in LA he was going to pay you a visit. Agreeing you went to get changed into blue jeans and black strapless top. And after putting your make-up and shoes you waited for him to arrive. A knock on the door announced you that Chad was there and opening the door you gave him a masive hug,

"Chaddie" You said as you pulled away. Grinning his famous grin he replied,

"Ready to go get dinner, lady?"

"Yeah I'm starving" And locking the door the two of you made your way to a near dinner place. "Have you talked to Ville?" He asked, and looking up at him you nodded your head,

"Yes, just a few hours ago, I'm going to Finland next week"

"Really? You are deep into the relationship aren't you?"  He asked as he placed the menu back on the table.

"I swear I haven't felt this way before, well since...you know"You said meaning about your dead husband, you had told the guys about him and they already knew all the story. Chad nodded his head and he wished that he could be Ville, he was such a lucky bitch. Now that Chad had found you again, the moment he saw you he thought that all the women tha the had seen didn't compare to you, your beauty was unique and he wanted to conquer you the moment he saw you again. And he wished more than anything that you didn't feel so much for Ville since he  wanted to have you.

"Oh I see, well glad that you two are together" He lied and his eyes were showing it, you just didn't want to comment on it because his look was so confusing. When the food arrived the two of you ate and talked about everything. He was telling you why he was in LA since he had  to visit some friends and he invited you to a party on Sunset Strip that night.

"I don't know I could catch on my sleep, I haven't been sleeping a lot" You said and that's when Chad noticed how thin you were looking and tired, "What's wrong with you?" He asked as he now was concerned.

"Nothing really, just work and all that shit I'm trying to get everything ready so I can take some time and go to Finland"

"Babe you can't get all stress out to go for a few days there you should slow down really" Nodding your head, you just wanted to drop the subject so asking him to go the two of you payed and left the place. You went home and when you got there, you turned to Chad "Thanks for the dinner, Chad" And kissing his cheek, he looked at you as you closed the door and got inside. Now he was concerned and he had to talk about this with Bam...

An Image Of Love - Chapter Seventeen

Ville wanted to shake you awake but he knew that when someone was passed out there was no way in hell that it could wake up until the alcohol goes away. Sighing he scopped you in his arms and prayed that tomorrow you were going to say that again and he will hate if you just said it out of your drunken state and didn't mean it at all. He felt his heart fluttered at the sound of your voice yelling the love you had for him and it will kill him if you didn't mean it.

Walking back to where the party was still alive, he passed the bodies that came on his way and sucessfully made it to the stairs. Climbing them he walked to the room where the two of you were staying and opening the door he kicked it shut and went to the bed laying you down. Staring at your passed out frame he couldn't believe that something so sweet and beautiful was with him after all the bad things he had done he still had something perfect with him and he thanked that to whichever god was out there.

Stripping him and you from your clothes he got into the bed and wrapping his arms around you in a protective way. He swore he wasn't going to let anyone hurted you, he was going to take care of you for the rest of his life, his precious. And smiling, he kissed the top of your sleepy face and fell asleep just like he wanted, with you in his arms.

The next morning, you woke up and the world wasn't welcoming you at all. You could barely open your eyes because it hurted you badly. "Who the hell let the curtains opened?" You whispered as that itself was painful. Feeling a pair of arms wrapped around your body, you knew they were Ville's because you could smell his hair scent and opening one eye you saw that his head was resting in your shoulder and his arms were wrapped around your waist.

You wanted to smile at his cuteness but you were in too much pain from the hangover to do so. Sometimes you just wished you wouldn't drink at all to not feel that shit the morning after. And when you started to hear Ville's soft snores you could swear your head was about to explode, every single sound made your head ached.

"Ville" You whispered softly shaking him a bit, but no sucess, he was dead asleep. Sighing, you didn't know how you manage to stand up and stumbled to the window where with your eyes closed your tried to close the curtains and succeding you went to the bathroom and threw up all the alcohol in your system. And that's when Ville opened his eyes and saw that you weren't there at his side, hearing the sound of throwing up, he quickly stood up and walked to the bathroom where you were sure kneeled in front of the toilet puking.

Grabbing your hair, he stroked your back up and down for you to calm down. One you were over with that, you looked up at Ville and with a weak smile you said "Good morning" Kissing the top of your head he replied with , "Good morning, darling. You shouldn't have drink that much you know but who am I to tell you that?"

"I know, I shouldn't. I can't remember anything, all I do is that I was downstairs on the bar drinking tequila with Matt and Chad" You replied standing against the bathroom's wall. At the sound of Chad, Ville's jaw locked "Yeah that's all?"

Nodding your head, you and Ville walked back to the bedroom, you layed down as all you wanted to do was close your eyes and Ville followed you suit. His heart sunk when he thought that you coudn't remember what you said the day before at the woods, it was all product of your drunkness. "Do you want me to go get you some aspirin, love?" Ville asked as you wrapped yourself in sheets.

"I would kiss you if you do" You replied as which he smiled "Oh and what If I didn't? You wouldn't kiss me?"

"Well yes but you want to go and get me an aspirin" And laughing Ville kissed the top of your head and walked downstairs. He thought about this, he was going to let time pass and let you fall in love with him, it was still too soon and he knew that he didn't have to be so anxious about things. He was going to enjoy the time with you and not worry about anything else.

On the kitchen he found Bam and Missy having breakfast, amazingly either of them were hungover "Good morning darlings" Ville said as he walked into the kitchen, "Good morning, how was yesterday with Char?" Asked Bam as he took a sip from his orange juice.

Shrugging, Ville replied "Went good, she just passed out and I took her to bed" And nodding Bam just let the subject drop as he watched as his friend poured a glass of water and grabbed an aspirin from the cabinet. "I will take this upstairs for her"

Hearing your cellphone ringing, you groaned and grabbed it from the nightstand, "Yeah?"

"Oh darling, you sound dead" Said Matthias ,your friend from Finland, on the other end.

"Hungover, very hungover" You replied which made him laugh.

"That's what you get from all the parties that you have. Anyway I was calling you to know how you were doing?"

Smiling and trying to sit up a bit, you said "I have been good, stressing out with work and all so I came to West Chester to be with my friends and boyfriend for this weekend and how have you been?"

"Good, although working a lot, we are about to open a bar with a friend and I would like for you to be here when we open for the first time in a few weeks, what do you say?"

"Oh that's amazing! I guess I could go, it depends on the work but I will try, I promise" And with that Ville opened the door and walked into the room, seeing that you were on the phone, he raised an eyebrow and put the glass of water and the pill on the nightstand next to you.

"Well, promise that you will come please?" Making a baby voice, Matthias knew you would come.

"You're silly" You said laughing which made Ville wanting to know who was "Okay, I promise I will try , you know, Finland is not here around the corner"

"I know, I know well call me if you come okay? I have to go now"

"Okay I will call you, bye love" And hanging up you looked up into Ville's questionably green eyes, "Hey baby" You said and pecked his lips softly.

"I brought you the aspirin" He said as he handed it to you grabbing it once again. Thanking him, you drowned it inmediatly although you were starting to feel better. "Who was it? On the phone"

"Oh remember Matthias? Well he was telling me that in a few weeks he is opening his new bar and he wants me to go" You replied and Ville's jaw locked, "That guy you were hanging around when you were in Finland?"

"Yes, well he is a friend of mine" You said but already seeing the jealousy on Ville's eyes, you quickly said "Just a friend okay? Plus if I go to Finland then there is more time to spend with you, right?" You replied with a smile as you wrapped your arms around his neck and got closed to him. Seeing that he didn't reply, you pouted and sat on his lap, "You aren't mad are you?" You said in a baby's voice, kissing his neck softly.

"Well If you continue doing that maybe I will not, you are such a teaser, not fair" Ville replied as he wrapped his arms around your waist bringing you closer. Grinning agaisnt his neck, you pulled away to look him on the eyes and said, "Well will you be happy if I go to Finland in a few weeks or not?"

"Of course I will plus I want to take you to some places" He said as he tickled your side making you scream in surprise. Seeing your reaction Ville continued tickling and soon you were on the bed laughing your head off at Ville tickling your sides.

"NO! I beg you to stop please" You said in between laughs. Ville just said, "Well tell me something I want to know then"

"What? I don't know!" Which made Ville tickle harder "Okay okay! Ville Valo the sexiest singer on earth!"

And shaking his head, he continued tickling "That's not it" He said as which he stopped and made you look at him in the eyes, "Say it, please"

And you knew what he wanted to hear, something that you have been trying to hide but it was hard now that you knew what you were feeling, "I love you" You said at which he grinned and kissed you softly sending fire all around your system  and soon the both of you were lost in each other's love.

The two of you got out of the room later that day holding hands and laughing at silly things, you were amazed that nobody had interrupted the two of you all day but soon you knew why. They were all hanging around the pool having fun and playing with water's guns something that you loved to do. And running there, you dragged Ville with you and grabbing two guns from the table, you filled them and started playing with them.

"The lovers join the game! All against them!" Said Bam at which you looked at Ville and started running, hiding on the woods. You hided behind a tree and you saw Bam passed you by and once he had his back to you, you hit him and ran, he was on your heels but Ville got out and shot him.

"Thank you baby!" You yelled but soon you were being shot by Rake and DiCo. "Stop you fuckers! You said laughing and tried to shot yours but the water was preventing you to see. "Ville, the princess is on trouble come on get out of the woods!" Yelled Bam from him to go out and soon Ville was out which made all the rest of the guys to shot him and soon you were being thrown on the pool with Ville.

"Fuckers! It was not fair all of you against us two!" You complained and  they just laughed. Ville wrapped his arms around you from behind and whispered in your ear, "I'm taking you out tonight" and turning in his arms you raised an eyebrow "Oh yeah? Where?"

"Surprise!" And you stunk your tonge out at him and he caught it in a kiss. Bam shook his head and made all of the guys jumped into the pool. "Jackass" You said as you pulled away and grinned.

Ville and you stayed sunbathing on one of the chairs and just spent the day with the guys. You tried not to think much about earlier when he wouldn't reply he loved you back. You opened your heart to him and he hasn't told you anything. But you didn't want to hurry him in anything just enjoy day by day.

An Image Of Love - Chapter Sixteen

Arriving at Castle Bam, you expected the chaos around the house, you just didn't expect the bucket of cold water thrown your way the moment you got into the house. All the guys laughing at you since you have got a white tank on, you tried to hide yourself but there was Ville for that and wrapping his arms around you he laughed with them.

"Welcome!" Bam said as he made Ville let go of you and hugged you.

"Asshole, now I have to go change" You said as you let go of him and with your bag made your way upstairs with Ville, "To change, not to fuck!" DiCo said and you just flipped him off with a grin. Ville wrapped one of his arms around your waist and put you closer to him somehow hinting something.

Looking up at him with an eyebrow raised, you asked "Are you going to let me go so I can change?"

And shaking his head, he started kissing your neck while saying, "I'm going to help you with that" And grabbing your tshirt, he started to pull it off breaking the kisses momentarily, and once it was off he started letting soft kisses around your breast while your hands found their way on his already messy hair. The feeling of his lips on your skin just set you on fire and you couldn't wait until he had you over and over again.

Falling on the bed with him on top of you, you rolled off and straddled his waist. This time it was you who were going to take him. Kissing his forehead, going down his cheek and finally to his lips, you kissed him passionately as you remembered how powerful they were. Running your hands up and down his torso, you felt him grow hard underneath your tights and since you couldn't take it anymore, you took his boxers fully and started massaging the hard length. Oh how you loved to heard him groan and moan your name.

"Say it" You demanded as you positioned yourself about to get him into you.

"I want you, fuck I want you" He said looking you straight in the eyes and coming down, you closed your eyes as pleasure started running through your system to the point that you could hear the sounds of fireworks in your head. Riding him hard as you had missed his touch around your body and him inside you, you were about to climax when he turned you around and started pumping inside of you.

Moaning loud as the hardest orgasm hit you, you felt Ville emptied himself right after that with a huge groan. "God, that felt like a fucking war" He said as he breath heavily and since you were much in the same state you nodded your head cuddling to him when he rolled off of you. Kissing the top of your head, Ville couldn't be happier that you were right there with him in his arms.

"You don't imagine how much I've missed you" He whispered softly which made your heart fluttered. Looking up into those marevollous eyes of his, you replied "I've missed you too" And pecking his lips softly you wanted that to never end, to stay that way forever. But staying at a house full of jackasses you knew that it wasn't so when someone knocked on the door.

"Come on Wille! I'm bored" You could heard Bam from the other side already drunk as fuck. Looking up at him, you smiled as you walked to the bathroom to have a shower while Ville put on his clothes and walked out to go with his stalker friend.

"Let's go Bammie" He said as he wrapped an arm around Bam's shoulder and walked downstairs with the biggest smile. Bam, although drunk, could see that his friend was now happier than before you got there. Man, he thought, Ville wouldn't shut up about you but he didn't care he was glad his friend was back at the way he was before Jonna got into his life.

Getting over with the shower, you dressed in jean shorts and a black sabbath's tank which Ville gave you some time when you were on tour and you loved it. Putting on some eyeliner, you walked downstairs and since you heard noises on the Pirate Bar you went straight there. And sure as hell the guys were downstairs drinking while preparing the place for the party.

"Look who got here!" You heard as you turned around and saw Ape. Smiling big ,you hugged her as you said "Ape! I have missed you!"

"Oh darling I've missed you too, you look cuter each day" She said and you thanked her, soon Ville had his arms wrapped around you and kissing your cheek softly he asked, "Do you want something to drink?"

"Yes, maybe some water, want to save the alcoholic drinks for later" And grinning, he grabbed your hand as the two of you made your way to the fridge and grabbing a water bottle for you he handed it to you. "Thank you, baby" And pecking his lips softly, you heard all the conmotion as four guys got into the Pirate Bar.

Seeing the CKY guys coming down, you ran to them and hugged each one. You've missed this guys and you were even in contact with Chad since he had asked for your cellphone number and call you once in a while. 

Jesse, looking at you, asked "So you are here for the Halloween party?"

"Of course! Couldn't miss this"

And laughing as a good memory came on your mind, he said "Yes I do remember your obsession of getting customes all the time for all the parties...I remember that one time when we were like 17,you were little of course, and we've got this huge party and we had to somehow make you look older than you were so you could got into it and we dressed you up like a whore and you were all happy about it"

Laughing with them since it was oh so true, you replied "I remember, it was so hilarious, you guys were trying to push all the guys away from me saying that I was a transvestite"

"And it worked! If your grandma knew where we got you into then she would have killed us" Jumped Bam as he remembered also what a funny story it was. Ville wrapped his arms around you from behind and rested his head on your shoulder as all of you catched up on stories about the past.

When time was for everyone to go change, you and Missy decided that you were going to get ready together and leave the guys to do whatever they wanted to do since boys always last less than girls. Putting on your custome, Missy couldn't do anything but admire you.

"It's gorgeus! Going to kill some finnish man today?" She asked with a smile and you laughed shaking your head.

"Well maybe who knows, now I need that sexy make up just like Ville in 'Join Me' do you think you could do it?" And grinning, Missy just said "Sit down" And started doing your make up just like you wanted to. Once she finished you couldn't believe how good you look with that sexy make up on. Thanking her, you let her finished preparing herself while you go downstairs to drink something.

The party had already started and some of the guys were around drinking and dancing to the sound of music. You couldn't locate Ville so you just stayed with Chad and Matt on the bar "Why don't we make tequila shots? Just like the old times" Asked Chad with a grin on his face one that had you accepting knowing that you could beat them.

"Like always I will win and then I will have to take all of you to your beds" You replied which made them laughed, grabbing the tequila and three shot glasses, you poured the transparent liquid on them and at the countdown of three all of you drowned your shots, the game you played was without lemon and salt, so it could be harder to stand it.

After five shots of tequila, the guys could barely continue "I won! once again" You said already feeling tipsy and the moment you turned around you could swore the world started spinning around. "Woah" You could manage to say before you fell backwards and into someone's arms. Looking up you saw it was Chad, "Budy I can't walk" You told drunkily. Laughing since he was much in the same state he helped you to a sit and he sat next to you.

Ville had just came down and started looking for you but someone had to prevent him from it and stopped him "Oh you are Ville Valo" A dirty blonde girl with blue eyes said drunkily "Well yes darling I am"

"Do you mind If I kill your loneliness?" She asked with a smirk what she thought it was sexy but it didn't really work with him. "No, it's fine I will let you go kill someone else's loneliness"

"But I want you" She said wrapping her arms around his neck. Ville tried gently to let go of her but she wouldn't, so seeing Novak he nodded his head to him to come and get her off of Ville. "Hey sexy lady" Said Novak as he took the girl away from Ville.

"Thanks buddy" Said Ville as he again started looking for you. Locating you on one of the couches with Chad at your side laughing and him having his arm wrapped around your shoulder didn't make Ville happy. Locking his jaw, he walked to you and stood in front of you "Excuse me?"

Looking up, blurred because of the alcohol you had taken you saw that it was Ville, you just didn't see the mad expression on his face "Babe! Baby! I have missed you" You slurred as you tried to stand up but failed. Ville shook his head and turned around. He wasn't going to stand that, his jealousy was killing him inside not matter how many times happened he wasn't going to get used to men being around you.

"No, Ville! Come back!" You yelled but he wouldn't turn around. Chad trying to get advantage on the situation said "Babe, come on stay here let's drink some more"

"No, Chad I think Ville got mad...BAM BAM!" You yelled when you saw Bam walked pass, he stopped and raised his eyebrow "Yeah?"

"Come help me, Ville got mad" Noticing your drunk state, Bam came to you and helped you stand up which had Chad complaining "Chad, Char is with Ville..." Bam said as he wrapped his arms around you from support and helped you look for him. Ville on the other side wasn't in such a great mood, he was outside deep into the woods inhaling on his cigarette. He couldn't help it, this had never happened to him, it will never bother him if some guy or friend got near his girl but with you it was all so different, he got jealous of everything and he couldn't stand that.

"VILLE!" He heard you drunkily calling "Bam he had to be here! VILLE!" You kept on saying while Bam moved you around, you swore you were seeing double. "Why would Ville be here?" Asked Bam and you shrugged.

"I just want to tell him that I love him! I LOVE HIM AND I CAN'T HELP IT!" You said that for the first time...Ville shocked and stood up from the rock he was sitting behind a tree. Seeing you there with Bam, he got closer to you and said, "What did you just say?"

"I think I will leave now" Bam said which had Ville nodding, grabbing you Ville put you against a tree for support and he stood in front of you with his hands in both sides of your face. "Repeat it" He said but you felt your eyes starting to drop and soon you had passed out.

An Image Of Love - Chapter Fifteen

Waking up the next morning at your cellphone ringing, you looked around and saw that it was on the floor. Grabbing it, you answered and heard Ville A. on the other end. Looking at your side, Ville was sound asleep so asking for five minutes, you carefully got out of the bed and into the living room.

"Yes? What's up?"

"Where did you and Ville go last night?" Ville A. asked as he zipped up his bag that he was going to take to USA since he was going to work with some bands there and the book with you.

"We kind of make up, we needed to talk" You said as you tried to put on your underwear.

"Oh yeah? Well that's good, listen are you ready to come? Because we need to leave in two hours or so"

And looking around at the mess, you replied "Yes, I will be there in a few minutes" And agreeing the two of you hung up as you made your way back to the bedroom. Since you had moved Ville had taken all the bed for him and was spread out laying face down. Smiling, you walked to the bed and sitting next to Ville you kissed his shoulder repeatdly.

Groaning softly, you moved your hands down and up his spine, "I'll give you one hour to continue then I'm calling the police" Ville said which made you grinned.

"I'm just waking you up to say goodbye" You said which made Ville turned around and sat on the bed.

"Where are you going?" He said sleepy and you replied, "To the airport" And Ville nodded his head remembering that you had to go and that he was going to be alone once again. Cupping his hands on your face, he brought you closed for a kiss and before kissing you, he said "I don't want you to go" And kissing you softly, you wrapped your arms around his neck knowing full well that you didn't have that kind of time.

"Ville I have to go" You said trying to pull away but he put you down again for a kiss "Few more minutes" And when you felt him growing big underneath your hand you pulled away definetely. Sighing, he stood up naked and walked to the bathroom, "I will take a shower and then go with you to Ville's" Ville said and you nodded your head while he closed the door. Making the bed since you knew that if you didn't then Ville wouldn't either, you fixed it and waited for him to finish.

Watching Ville walked out naked except from the towel around his waist, you grinned while you watched him bent down to grab a boxer. Standing up and smacking his ass, you saw as he stood straight and raised an eyebrow looking your way. Seeing your grin, he did the same and said "Don't start because we don't have the kind of time I would like to use with you"

"Okay, okay I will stop" And walking out of the room you waited until he finished changing and after that you grabbed your things and the two of you took a cab to Ville A's house. Arriving there, you knocked on the door and saw Ville A. with a grin on his face as he opened the door. Picking your bag the three of you made your way to the airport.

"Well it's time to go" You said turning to Ville and nodding his head he kissed your deeply as he replied, "Call me as soon as you arrive" And agreeing the two of you part ways, you back to your home Ville back to his.

Arriving at your house, you looked around and started unpacking. Back home, you thought. It was so easy to be on tour, you stayed at hotels and everything was served, you didn't have to do anything but now that was over with and you had to get to work once again, now on the book. While you were looking through the photos, you saw the one of Ville and remembered that you had to call him.

So picking up the phone, you dialed Ville's number "Hello?" He answered in his native tonge.

"I don't know what that means, but hello"

Smiling, Ville was happy that he heard your voice, "Hey babe, how are you?"

"I'm good, had just finished organizing everything here at home and I was looking at the pictures from the tour, can't be any more happy about them, they are just amazing"

"Well you are a great photographer so I'm sure they are" Ville said which made you smile.

"You're silly but thank you, so how are you doing?"

"I'm good, had just hung up with Bam by the way he invited us to his Halloween party next week, he said he was going to call you some time tomorrow to tell you but that If I talked to you first then I could tell you" Ville said which made you grinned, you loved to get dressed in customes.

"Really? Great! I love Halloween, I'm sure going to be there..."

"Then I will see you there" And talk turned about what were you going to do in those days that you spent apart and to tell each other how you missed one another. Just the usual.

Your week was tiring, Ville A. got you making shoots with him and also helping him editing other bands shoots while editing the photos from the book, one could say that editing isn't tiring since all you got to do is sit in front of a computer and change things, but it really is because you are a perfeccionist.

You were sitting on your apartment's office, having a coffee and going through your emails when you heard your cellphone ringing, seeing the ID you answered with a smile, "Hey bambi"

"Pft how did you know it was me?"

"I booked your cellphone number while on tour sweetheart"

"Oh well anyway, I'm here with Mr. Heartbreaker Valo and he said he can't wait to see you tomorrow, by the way are you coming?"

Laughing at the 'Mr Heartbreaker Valo' comment, you said "Well he isn't a heartbreaker with me you know and yes I'm going, my flight it's schedule for tonight, so I'm arriving around 7 am or so"

"What? So early? Damn you, okay I will have Wille picking you up...Anyway he was going" And arranging everything, you hung up and closed your laptop. Feeling hungry, you walked to the fridge and saw that there was nothing to cook, so calling Ville A. you asked him if he wanted to grab something to eat and the two of you went to have dinner. When you came back you grabbed your bags and made your way to the airport.

Ville A. wasn't coming since he still had some things to get ready in LA but he said that if he finished early that he would pay you all a visit. Boarding the plane you put your iPod on and couldn't wait to get to Philadelpia so you could see Ville and all the crew, you were missing them already.

Arriving into Philly's airport, you didn't realize that you felt asleep and were shaken awake by the assitant. Thanking her you walked out of the plane looking dead and without make up on so you decided to sneak to the bathroom and put on some make up, you couldn't let the guys see you like that. Finishing with it, you walked out with your luggage and saw Ville with his blue jeans and ozzy osbourne's tshirt waiting for you while smoking a ciggarette.

Since he hadn't see you, you walked to him from behind and tip toeing, since he was way taller than you, with your hand you blinded his eyes and said, "Guess who" With a strange voice but Ville could tell it was you by your scent. Turning around, he grinned and kissed you softly. It was like the world stopped the moment he set his lips on yours and it was you and him in that moment in a lover's embrace.

"I've missed you so much" He said in between kisses as you replied with the same, "Let's go have breakfast" He told you as he pulled away grabbing your bag with one of his hands and the other he entwined his fingers with yours. The two of you hailed a cab to a near breakfast place and getting into it, you went to the farest booth so noone could bother the two of you.

"I need to get a custome, what are you going to wear?" You asked as Ville looked through the menu and at the sound of your voice he looked up, "Jack Skellington" He grinned and you smiled shaking your head,

"I should have known, I guess later today I will go find mine I haven't got the time to get one in LA"

Noticing the bags under your eyes and how thin you looked, although you were thin but now you looked unhealthy thin, Ville asked, "Love, have you been eating and sleeping well?"

"I haven't got much to sleep, Ville A. and I are working hard on the book and also shooting other bands. I barely have time to eat or even catch on my sleep but I'm used to that so no worries" You replied as you now looked through the menu, missing the frown from Ville.

He was worried that you were in a bad state, he saw how tired and unhealthy you look and he was going to do all in his power for you to get better and with the help of the guys, you sure were going to get better in this three days that you were going to spend together.

When you finished breakfast, Ville decided it was time for you to go and pick your custome since later that day you weren't going to have time for it, you needed to help with the decoration and stuff, so arriving to one of the places you looked around and laughed when Ville showed you skimpy outfits he would like you to wear but just for him, and pushing him aside since he wasn't being helpful, you did all on your own.

"I want a cute outfit" You said as Ville chased after you with yet more sexy customes and seeing that there was no way that you were going to hear him, he decided to make some more productive and wrapping his arms around your waist from behind he started kissing your neck while you look through the rack. "Ville" You said demanding for him to stop and when you felt him grin you knew that he wouldn't.

"Oh look at this one!" You said showing him this: 

"Do you like it?" You asked as you turned around and grinned at him sexily. Seeing already Ville drolling at the thought of you wearing that, he just said "Take it" And literally dragged you to the cashmachine.

Once you finished, you hailed a cab and drove to Castle Bam neither of you knew that everything was going to change that night.

An Image Of Love - Chapter Fourteen

The last few days at Finland were spent at Ville A.'s house since you sent him to Valo's house to pick up your things. The guys already knew you two were over they just didn't understand why. You tried to look as you didn't care about him but that's what you have always done to prevent yourself to get hurted. Valo on the other side was trying to hook up with as many girls as he could so he could just forget about you since he couldn't stop thinking about you.

"Ville, let me pay you a drink" Said another blonde bimbo from the bar. Ville wanted to take the pain away and what a better way than drinking? Something he swore he had left but now there was nothing that could help him forget and he needed it.

"A beer please" Replied Valo as he sat on one of the chairs in front of the bar as the girl sat on his lap. Smiling without feeling behind, Ville just put his arm on the bar stool and waited for the dark liquid to arrive. He was sure his friends weren't coming but he was so wrong.

Walking into the bar with Ville A. and The 69 eyes' guys, you made your way to an empty booth. Scanning the bar you saw that Ville was on the bar stool with a girl on his lap and trying to swallow the pain you turned around

"Isn't that Ville?" Asked Jussi as he saw Ville taking a glass of beer. "What the fuck is he doing there?" Asked Jyrki as he stood up and walked to Ville, Jussi following behind with the rest of the guys. You just stayed sit not wanting to go and face him although he was doing something he shouldn't.

"What the fuck are you about to do Ville?" Asked Jussi with fury as he took the beer away from Ville's hand. The girl let out a little girl's scream and replied, "Ville what are they doing?"

Letting go of her Ville said, "It's my life and I do whatever I want and drinking is one of them" And trying to grab the beer bootle from Jussi you stepped in.

"Do you think that by drinking you are going to take all the pain away, you dumbass?" You asked angry showing in your voice. You knew you shouldn't be talking to him but you couldn't let him drink and loose all the things that he had built after stop drinking.

"And do you think you can tell me what to do?" He asked back with the same tone that you had in your voice. Pushing him so he would step outside the group that had formed, you grabbed his hand and took him outside the bar.

"We should go and stop them" Said Bazie which made Jussi shook his head.

"Nope, I know Ville was going to do that to forget about her, they should solve their problems alone without anyone interfering" And everyone agreed and went back to sit.

Letting go of Ville's hand you turned to him and said, "What were you thinking?"

"What do you care? I thought you told me that I should solve my problems on my own" Ville said back as he looked into your eyes seeing the angry feeling.

"Yes that's right but solve them on your own not solve them with alcohol, I think you are more intelligent than that"

"Don't give me that. You left me without a reason or well because of a stupid reason. How can I solve that huh?" Ville asked as he now was face to face with you.

"Ville, this wasn't meant to be we live far away from each other, we would barely see each other. This last few months were great but we just can't continue this" You said not really feeling that but you knew it had to be done. Ville just shook his head and replied,

"We could make it work, Carla. It's you, you are in love with that Matthias and you have known him for what? Three days?" Asked Ville as his eyes darkened.

"I'm not in love with him, he is just a good guy that's all...The point isn't that, the thing is that you were about to throw everything away by drinking with a blonde bimbo there just because you are way to stupid to realise there are better ways to solve the problems"

"I'm a what?" He said as he now had you agaisnt the wall just inches from you, his eyes cold as ice.

"Stupid" You whispered as he now was scaring you and you had to keep telling yourself he wouldn't hurt you physically. Ville just looked at you with a dead look on his face.

"I won't let you go" Whispered Ville as his lips were just inches from you. You could felt yourself wanting those lips surrending to them. Shaking your head, trying to deny him, you knew those feelings were stronger than you thought and soon Ville was crashing his lips with yours in a kiss full of passion.

"No, Ville no..." You said moving your head to the side which only made him grabbed your face again and kissed you again. Ville won't stop, he swore he wouldn't let you go and wrapping your arms around your waist bringing you closer as you surrendered to him, he pulled away and whispered, "Let's get to my apartment, we need to talk before you leave tomorrow"

And nodding your head, not really having power to say 'no' since that kiss still got you dazed, you let Ville grabbed your hand and walked you to a cab. Getting into it he gave the directions to his house all the ride silent as you two were lost in your own thoughts.

Once you got there, Ville payed the cab and the two of you walked upstairs to his apartment. Opening the door he let you in first and as you looked around you saw that it was all cleaned. Turning to him, he said "I cleaned a bit"

Nodding your head, already seeing it you walked around and watched the photos on the wall since you haven't been there much to look around the place, "Do you want a coffee or something?" Ville asked and you turned your head and nodded,

"Yes please" And as Ville walked to the kitchen you looked at his back. What were you doing there? You didn't know, as much as you told yourself not to surrender to that feeling he gave you when he was near you, you couldn't help it. And if you knew better, he was going to win.

You grabbed a frame of a picture of Ville and a beautiful little girl and as you saw him walked into the living room, you asked "Who is she?"

"That's my niece, Thalia" And walking to you, he gave you the cup and smiled looking at the picture, "She has three years old, my brother's daughter"

"She is so cute" You replied and placed the photo back on it place. Looking up, you took a sip of your coffee and saw Ville looking at you, "We should talk, Carla"

"Ville I know I acted without thinking and all, but I know when a man is in love and I'm sorry but I can't help you forgetting Jonna because I have feelings too and then our relationship would of be all a lie"

Shaking his head Ville replied, "I don't love Jonna, that's where you are wrong...I don't have feelings for her, I have feelings for you" He said as he layed down the coffee on the coffee table and put his hands cupping your face. Looking deep into your eyes trying to see any feeling, Ville said, "Just give me one more opportunitty and I swear I won't fail again, it's just that she has caused most of my problems and I'm tired of her and she won't let me alone I'm afraid she would take you away from me, I don't want that"

Looking at him, just taking in all he said you couldn't believe he had feelings for you so soon, and you couldn't believe that you were feeling the same way as him when he said, "And yes, if you see love in my eyes, it's true but it's not for Jonna but for you"

You were spechless, you didn't know what to say next you decided that actions speak louder than words so kissing his lips softly you let him know that you felt just the same way. Wrapping your arms around his neck, you brought him closer to you since you had missed his lips this last few days without him and you wanted to enjoy him now.

Ville knew, because of your kiss, that you were telling him that you felt the same way and that you were going to give him a second chance and he knew that this time he wasn't going to fuck it up, he was going to make it work. Scopping you in his arms, Ville started walking to his room at which you said, "There was a perfect floor there and a couch"

"Nope. This time I want you in my bed" And laying you down, he started kissing you all over as the two of you lost in each other's love all night long.

An Image Of Love - Chapter Thirteen

The weeks passed so quickly that you didn't realize that it was just a week for the whole tour to finish and you couldn't be happy at all. You have got to know this guys and loved them as friends and your relationship with Ville was better than ever but this last few days only one question was on your mind...how were the two of you making it work if the two of you live far away from each other. As much as you tried not to think on it you couldn't and it was breaking you apart.

Wanting to enjoy the time with him to the fullest you expended every day with him and the guys going everywhere. Since Ville A. decided that you had enough pictures from where to choose the two of you had stopped taking photos or just taking for pleasure. Now you were on your way back to Finland where the guys were playing their last 3 concerts and after that you would part ways with them once again.

Arriving at Helsinki airport the guys decided that each one would go home and rest for a bit after the concert that was that night. Ville decided for you to go and stayed with him while Ville A. stayed at his home. Taking a cab going hand in hand the two of you were driven to Ville's apartment. You climbed the two sets of stairs and reached Ville's apartment door and opening it all you could smell was tabacoo.

"You haven't been here in forever and still that smell is here" You said and he laughed turning on the light since the curtains were preventing the sun to come in. Looking around the living room, just a couch, a coffee table and a tv in front of it, all you could see clearly was the papers scattered around it.

Looking up at him with 'I knew I would found this' look, Ville just grinned as with his feet he pushed some of the papers so he could walk, "Eh well I'm a lonely man"

And walking to him wrapping your arms around his neck you whispered, "You aren't a lonely man anymore" Which made Ville grinned and replied, "You are killing my loneliness" And with that the two of you started kissing. Ville wrapped his arms around your tiny waist bringing you closer to him as he wanted the two of you to become one and never been apart. But he also knew that you had to go in a week what he did know is that he wasn't going to let you go that easily, not now not never.

A knock could be heard on the door and you were about to pull away but Ville didn't let you, "Ville someone is at the door" You managed to say in between kisses and sighing he pulled away and went to open it. There stood a tall brunette girl very skinny and with green eyes.

"Ville I heard you were back in town" Said the girl as she walked in not noticing you.

"Yes, what are you doing here Jonna? I think I made it clear the last time we saw each other that I don't want to see you again" Said Ville as he left the door opened for her to walk out. And when she finally noticed you with a disgusted look she turned to Ville and asked, "Who's she?"

And walking to you,Ville wrapped his arm around your waist and replied, "She is Carla, my new girlfriend. So Jonna what do you want?"

"You changed me for that?" She asked as that disgusted look was still on your face. "Excuse me but I'm not insulting you so don't insult me" You finally said as you tried to control your voice. You weren't about to fight with her, you were more intelligent than that.

"Listen, sweety, I do whatever I want and If I wanted to insult you because you are with my man, then I will"

With made you laugh, "Your man? Why didn't you think that when you were in bed fucking with your best friends huh? He is your man when you are lonely well listen now, he is tired of that fucking bullshit now he has me and you can gladly go and fuck yourself" You said and you felt as Ville tighten his hold around your waist. Jonna was about to punch you but Ville stopped her.

"Go! Now" And pushing her outside he closed the door in her face but you could still hear Jonna screaming, "You will come back to me just like always" And with that you heard her stormed off. Ville turned to you with a suffering look and walking to him you gave him a hug.

"I'm sorry about that, she still thinks I'm his and I hate this" Ville said which made you look up at him and putting your hand on his cheek you said, "Listen, just don't hear her she will do anything to hurt you because you don't want to come back to her" Nodding his head Ville let go of you and said "I will go to lay down" And walking away not giving you a kiss he just slammed the door shut something that shocked you.

And then was when you started thinking that if he acted that way was because he still loved her. Sighing feeling your heart ached at that thought, you grabbed your hand bag and walked out of the door leaving Ville alone in his house. Not knowing where to go you started wondering around the city all the time trying to forget about this whole situation but it was hard when you had poster of this man and his band everywhere.

Sitting in one of the many benchs in the park you crossed your legs and just looked down to the floor, you had drifted into space when you heard a voice next to you, "Hey why such a sad look?" You heard someone said in finnish and looking up you replied, "I don't speak finnish, sorry"

Smiling, the blonde guy with blue eyes replied "Oh so you are american?"

Nodding your head, you saw him smile a big smile "I used to live there in California"

"Really? I'm from Los Angeles" You replied and you felt your cellphone vibrated and taking it out you saw that it was Ville. Deciding that you didn't want to talk him yet you turned it off and looked up, "Problems?" The boy asked and with your suffering look he replied ,"Oh sorry I'm Matthias" And extending his hand , you took yours and shook them "I'm Carla and yeah some problems but I guess everything will be fixed"

"Nice name, is it american or something?"

"Nope actually it's Italian, my grandparents were from Italy" And with that the two of you started a long conversation, one that had you talking for one hour but as you didn't reliaze that it was late, you still talked.

Ville was trying to call your cell but it was off, frustated he didn't know what to do and hating the way he acted before like he didn't care about you and just what he felt, he wanted to punch the wall and Jonna for that matter. He didn't know what came over him and he wished that you weren't mad at him. Calling the only person that could help him, Ville dailed Ville A.'s number and waited for him to pick up.

"Sup?" Said Ville A. from the other line.

"Listen Char had left and she isn't answering her phone and I don't know where she is, man you have to help me"

"What? What do you mean she left?"

"Yes, we had some problems here and she just simply left, she didn't tell me"

"Fuck, I'm on my way there" And hanging up, Ville waited for V.A. (Ville A.) to arrive.

Seeing it was getting dark and that you had a concert to go, you said "Hey Matthias, I have to get going but it was really interesting to talk to you" And standing up, he followed and said "It was a pleasure meeting you, I will give you my cell if you want again to have a talk like this" and nodding your head with a smile the two of you exchanged cell numbers and with a kiss on the cheek the both of you left.

Calling Ville A. since you didn't want to call Ville after that you waited for him to pick up. When he did, you heard him freaking out "Where the fuck are you?"

"Wait, calm down. I was just walking around"

"You got me fucking worried, you could have tell you were going out" Ville A. continued screaming.

"Listen, I'm a big girl already I don't need to ask if I want to go out anyway where do I meet you to go to the concert?" You asked as you walked around waiting for him to give you a direction.

"I'm at Ville's so come here"

"No, I will meet you at the concert hall" And hanging up already knowing the concert was held you started walking to it. And stopping in a bar, since there was still an hour for the concert to start , you got into it and asked for a beer. Drinking it slowly you looked around the place. It was quite a nice place all wooden and pretty dark. There was bands pictures around the wall and also vinils.

Finishing your beer you payed the bartender and left. Arriving to the concert hall you walked to the backstage door and waited for the guys to arrive. You heard your cellphone ringing and taking it out you saw that it was Jussi "Hey Char where are you?"

"I'm at the backstage's entry"

"Okay we are arriving in 5 minutes, wait us there" And agreeing you put your cellphone back on your back pocket and waited for them. You felt someone tapped your shoulder and turning around you saw Matthias with a beautiful smile on his face. "Hey, what are you doing here?" You asked also smiling.

"Came to see two of my favorites bands and you?"

"Well I'm the photographer of HIM and The 69 eyes" And you saw as his face turned into a shocked expression, "Are you serious?" He asked and you nodded. And just then you saw the bus parking and all the guys coming down. "Here they come" Jussi was the first one to spot you talking with a blonde guy that he didn't know and walking to you he handed you the backstage pass.

"Do you want to join us?" You asked Matthias and he grinned "I would love to" So asking Jussi for one more backstage pass, Jussi was thinking if Ville would kill him if he gave it to you. And thinking that maybe it was a friend, Jussi gave the backstage pass to you and all of you got inside. You were glad that you didn't cross paths with Ville all the time you were there. That was until you got the room where the guys were staying before the show with Matthias by your side.

Ville sent Matt a death look that you swore could kill but you didn't care so taking Matt to the drinking table the two of you grabbed beers and talked. Ville A. walked to you and wrapping an arm around your shoulders he asked, "So who is this boy here? I'm Ville nice to meet you" And shaking hands with him Matt replied, "I'm Matthias"

"I met him today at the park" And nodding his head, you saw as Ville came to join the chat with fire burning in his eyes. "Oh Ville man! I'm a big fan of you" Said Matthias as he turned to Ville. Barely smiling Ville nodded his head and shook hands with him. You decided to leave but Ville wasn't having that "So Char where were you today?" Ville asked trying to control his voice.

"I went for a walk around the town where I met him" Nodding his head Matt said, "Yeah she was in the park, by the way you two are friends?"

"Yes, friends" You said and you hated the look that Ville sent your way. Deciding that you were better off of there, you excused yourself to go to the bathroom and you were glad when you succesfully made it outside and down the hall opening the door of the bathroom. Breathing heavily, you waited until you calmed down and opening the door you saw Ville standing right in front of you.

"What do you want?" You asked as he pushed you inside and locked the bathroom door, "What the fuck is wrong with you?"

"Now we are friends? What the fuck is wrong with YOU, not with me" Ville asked as he walked to you and you got away from him.

"You are fucking in love with Jonna and you are with me to forget about her, that's the problem" You replied with venom in your voice and soon he had you backed up on the wall his hands at both sides of your head.

"What the fuck are you talking about?" Ville replied with a dead tone.

"You heard me" You whispered, you were scared from that look he had, it was like he wanted to beat the shit out of someone.

"You are wrong, you misunderstood the situation"

"I didn't, let me go" You said trying to push him away but he was stronger than you, "You aren't going anywhere until you heard me" He replied and shaking your head, you looked up at him.

"I don't know what come over me but I swear I'm not in love with her"

"You are in denial that's it, Ville just let me go I won't hate you if you love her just let me live my life and you solve your problems with her" You said and finally pushed Ville aside and when you were about to unlock the door he asked, "So you are going to leave like this? You will just believe whatever the fuck your mind wants to believe?"

And turning around with your eyes filled with water you replied "Yes" And walking out you closed the door and walked down the hall looking down. Slamming into someone you looked up and saw Matt, "Hey I was looking for you...what's wrong?" He asked as he saw the tears in your eyes.

"Nothing I just had a little dust in my eyes" And not believing you he replied "Come on, let's have something to drink" And walking with him to the bar he asked for two beers and handed one to you. "Not to offend, but I just don't want to talk about it, Matt"

Smiling that charming smile he replied "It's okay, we will talk about whatever you want"

Ville walked out of the bathroom and back to the backstage room, he wanted to talk to you he didn't want to leave things like that, it wasn't the way it was supposed to be. But not seeing you there, he asked everyone but nobody had seen you and Matt either.  Seppo announced that it was time to go on stage and Ville with a dead look on his face walked into the stage trying to locate you through the crowd he saw that you were sat on the bar with Matt laughing. And he let out all his anger by singing and screaming into the microphone.